I am Single and Same Sexual. Now that's out of the way...
I've read many times that people in your life are like a mirror of yourself.
I used to be the first one to say YEAH THAT IS SOO TRUE.
Now why do I question what it is that they are reflecting back?
I guess that is the question I have to ask myself huh?
Why Oh why do I continually meet married men, bi men, guys who have been married before or are in a "situation." I mean it is so strange that of all the options, I continually attract what seems like the most complicated brothas. Is me not being completely OUT the problem? AM I REALLY DL because I pick and choose whom I disclose my sexual proclivities to? Am I still closeted when I fully accept my sexuality and own it and express it to the person I am with? Do I have to run the streets screaming I'm here I'm queer I am black and sticker the rainbow flag on my car? Is that really people's BIZ? Would that throw off this trail of the real DL men that I draw to me?
This is so frustrating because I have gone to the clubs and I consider myself quite gay friendly and quite socially diverse. Been told that I am quite undetectable (trust me I am just being myself unlike the "straight" acting tripe that a lot of SGL Brothas portray).I make myself available and try not to sterotype or discriminte dating options when it comes to Brothas. I will even say Hello to a Tranny or a Drag Queen at the local supemarket if that was to ever take place. Yet, when I meet someone new, there is always this his & hers luggage (ahem baggage) that comes along with them. "Oh my Gosh am I hermaphrodite and nobody told me or am I just the ideal male partner for these guys, not too masc. not to fem. I just don't get it. Maybe it's a compliment that I am everything they ever wanted in a man and in a woman. Maybe I should start wearing a wedding ring to throw them off of my trail. Maybe I should wear a TSHIRT that says NO BI/MARRIED MEN. Maybe it is a compliment that I am marriage material or maybe... okay I'm rambling. LOL
I desire and I WILL meeet an available, single black/latino brotha that, as one of my Fav bloogers THE GAYTE KEEPER says "Ready to Male. Until then I will continue to look deep into this matrimony mirror that is shoved in my face.